Can't Say Good Bye

I can't seem to just say good bye
doesn't seem to matter how hard I try
the fact is you are my best friend
and sadly it's you I want to be there in the end
though in some ways you're a major fool
I still think you're more than a little cool
I've memorized your face I'm sad to say
simply because I knew you'd be so far away
I think about you all night and all day
simply hoping and praying you're okay
you'll read this and I hope it'll make you smile
anyway I hope it does because I haven't seen it in a while
in the past I have tried my best to push you away
but to no ones surprise I didn't even last a day
I found that I care more then I thought I did
and on these kettle of feelings I can't keep a lid
the secret of the fact all I want is to have your heart
I promise if I had it I will never let you fall apart
and if you fell apart beside me I'd be true
You'll find that I will be the one to be there for you
I love that you are not too  numb and can feel shame
I hope someday I can help ease your pain
For now I choose to take pause; it's true
but I guess I still couldn't stay away from you
how can I when I care about you the most
and everything seems to crumble like the sands on the coast
no one can deny I really tried my best just to walk away
so I must ask now: would you mind if I were stay?
maybe it would be better for me to keep trying to walk
but who then would I confide in? or simply talk?
you know too much for me to walk away
so if you say nothing it looks like I'm here to stay
and if we don't look to close you may not realize I love you
maybe my feelings will never be through