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Reality
When I stare into the mirror,
The first place I go is my eyes.
The face I see is one I fear,
Each smile given a perfectly, placed lie.
Pale skin, colored a bit by blush,
And lips a gentle pink shade.
Laughing is such a superficial rush,
But the reality is beginning to fade.
Dressing in a perfect outfit for me,
And making sure I looked good for school.
Under the illusion that I am free,
When in reality, I am played for a fool.
Pretending is so easy now in my life,
It's all I've ever truly done.
Cutting away the feelings, locking away strife.
These are my sickened ideas of fun.
I don't expect to be loved,
I just expect to be used.
Receiving empty-armed hugs,
Causing my heart self-abuse.
But don't worry about me,
I'm just rambling at my reflection.
There is nothing much here to see,
Just someone whose mind died from her own infection.
The first place I go is my eyes.
The face I see is one I fear,
Each smile given a perfectly, placed lie.
Pale skin, colored a bit by blush,
And lips a gentle pink shade.
Laughing is such a superficial rush,
But the reality is beginning to fade.
Dressing in a perfect outfit for me,
And making sure I looked good for school.
Under the illusion that I am free,
When in reality, I am played for a fool.
Pretending is so easy now in my life,
It's all I've ever truly done.
Cutting away the feelings, locking away strife.
These are my sickened ideas of fun.
I don't expect to be loved,
I just expect to be used.
Receiving empty-armed hugs,
Causing my heart self-abuse.
But don't worry about me,
I'm just rambling at my reflection.
There is nothing much here to see,
Just someone whose mind died from her own infection.
Published 14th Aug 2012
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15th Aug 2012 1:19am
"I just expect to be used?" Watch out for your expectations. We never know, when going into a relationship, what the future will bring. You are a talented poet, but perhaps put too much which is negative about yourself into the poem. You must have another side, everyone does. Thanks for sharing this, though.
15th Aug 2012 4:00am
Once you've been used a certain number of times it hard to believe anyone will love you, even though I know someone will some time I sympathize with the author.
Thank you for the feedback. (:
I know the poem is negative in your mind and such, but this is how I've come to cope with my life as of late. After people playing with your emotions and using your honesty to get what they want, a negative outlook is bound to happen.
The reason this is in 'Self' category, is because it's me looking into my reflection, the things I feel and think as I meet people who say they like me and such. It's how I've been, it's a guard I know that others view as negative but it's also protected me and kept me alive up to this point, so I view it fairly neutrally.
I know the poem is negative in your mind and such, but this is how I've come to cope with my life as of late. After people playing with your emotions and using your honesty to get what they want, a negative outlook is bound to happen.
The reason this is in 'Self' category, is because it's me looking into my reflection, the things I feel and think as I meet people who say they like me and such. It's how I've been, it's a guard I know that others view as negative but it's also protected me and kept me alive up to this point, so I view it fairly neutrally.
15th Aug 2012 9:59am
Thank you Pepper for the feedback, and I'm glad you can sympathize, even if only on occasion. (:
18th Aug 2012 2:02am
I know that feel bro. remember that you are never alone, you will always have a huge meaning in my life
23rd Aug 2012 7:18pm
