What Else Can They Do To Me?

Now I rock my own boat
Toss it upside down
Walking in my shabby coat
To and fro this scary town

So much has been done to me
Now what else can they do?
With all these ugly fantasies
How can I get through

To you am just another empty soul
Seeking unnecessary attention
Eventually reality will take control
Maybe then you can appreciate my desperation

I don't feel loved I feel lost
It should be my best times but its the worst
Like a rat in a maze I'm stucked
Heaven's door's shut I'm running  out of luck

Yet its just the begining
Every passing day there's an unveiling
Like a man on deathrow I'm waiting
And you know how it feels when anticipating

Dark premonitions
Endless trepidations
Its time to apply some caution
But the brew doesn't help much in this situation

Danger lurks in every bend
There's a stranger in every friend
I don't know who to trust anymore
Only me,myself and thoughts of the end

My purpose has been altered
On my pains I built an altar
On it I sacrificed my laughter
When at last I'm gone
The afterlife will open a new chapter

I've used myself
I've abused myself
All what they can do to me
I've done twice of it to myself

So what else can I fear?
To hell with the voice in the rear
I've accepted this fate as my destiny
So what else can they do to me?