Morally Bankrupt

I'm taking this moment to say I'm crazy, for taking blessings for granted
So far I've been immature, too demure, and full of bullshit
I want you to know that I don't hate you
As a matter of fact I want to thank you
You always said what I never saw and you never stopped believing
So take this moment and own it
It couldn't get more golden
I had to lose it all, and no one saw me fall so far down that the darkness faded
At the bottom when I looked up I saw all my memories and what I'd become
In that instant I wanted to end it
There was no way I wanted to live this
I needed fire to keep warm so I burned my memories, tattered and torn
I fueled the fire burning inside with ugly emotions I tried hiding
You were standing in my place waiting to be burned at the stake
As always it was you paying for my mistakes
Back then I was foolish so incomplete, hiding behind your image of me
Till one day I just let go of your voice
In an instant I had to make a choice
Stay stuck at the bottom or free myself of these chains
All the layers started falling away
I got better a little everyday
And when I stopped to think I let the tears fall down the sink
Let it all drain and wash away
I didn't mean to be so angry
I didn't mean to be so mean
I can be so fucking stupid
At that point I was just trying to be
So here it is, if you hear it
Or you stumble upon it one day
I'm Sorry