The Reason

Underneath everyones high expectations
is a sliver of reality.
They know I will fail.
They are counting on it.
They have already passed their judgement.
Dispite my potential,
my, talent, my drive,
they know drugs are the only thing that keep me alive.
If I could I would
smoke everyday
pop pills with some buddies,
drink my life away.
If I could I would
without proving them wrong,
I'd turn my life into A Rock n' Roll song.
The life i want isn't the life thats mine.
I'm forced to choose between them
all the time.
Proving them wrong
or proving them right
I choose to prove myself tonight.
I'm supposed to be the girl
with the life set in stone.
Yet I am the girl who'se soul has no home.
I choose my life, my future
day by day.
Proving them right or wrong
along the way.
I can't let them win,
but I damn sure won't lose.
The life I want
will be mine,
No matter what I have to do.
I will be sucessful. I will not O.D.
I will be happy
dispite what's happened to me.
I will not fail. I won't drop out of school.
But I will do the drugs that I want to do.
I'm the epitome of opposites
The definition of flame.
One day
everyone
will remember my name.