Stupid

Go, now.
& don't follow my lead.
I love you to much
for you to end up like me.
Tears &  such
should not come out of your eye's,
for you are far to pretty to cry.
Now that you have left
to be on your own,
I hope you find a brighter day.
One where you won't hear what I have to say.
One where I won't get it the way.
I feel like such a burden on you.
I don't want you to have to choose
between me & other things
that mean more to you.
I feel so stupid for the things I do,
the pathetic drama I put you through,
& all the things I don't tell you.


This was the day you decided to leave,
leave me for better things.
I want you to achieve your goals & dreams.
But, please...
just know I am always by your side,
even though you're not by mine.
& if I haven't commited to many sins,
I hope to see you up in Heaven.
& maybe, if I am lucky,
you'll love me again.


Your's forever,
Gopher Boy.