Mummy Loves You

Mummy Loves You

Good Morning, Sunshine
I open my eyes, but you slumber peacefully, oblivious to my adoring inspection
The corners of your lips upturned and I wonder how your subconscious mind entertains you so
Turning onto my side, I prop my head in my hand
My fingers reach out, brushing a tendril of flaxen hair from your shuttered eyes.
My child, innocent to the world, how I long to protect you from its atrocities
How I’d fight to guard your heart from its horrors
You know nothing of its realities; a fact I wish would endure.
What could I teach you to prepare you for your life ahead?
How could I spare you the harsh lessons of reality?

As the sun breaks through a gap in my curtains
Ancient rays cast a golden halo around your head
I curse my own selfish need to bare you
To bring you into this wretched world for the sake of my own maternal heart
My love for you knows no bounds
Yet I know I cannot protect you from what lies beyond these four walls

Baby girl; like an animal releases it’s young into the wild
So must I one day let you go, but before that day comes
Let me give you my words of wisdom
Never stop laughing and never stop loving
The fragile years bestowed upon us are short
Your immortality lies only in the hearts and minds of those you touch
Don’t turn your back on hate, but answers wholly with love

I see you stir, stretching your arms lithely above your head
Your lashes flicker and you turn away from me to face the morning rays
You slumber on, oblivious to my turmoil
So I reach out to pull your smaller body into mine
I hold you, pouring out profound love in my encompassing embrace
Knowledge that I won’t always be there for you cuts deep
Will I teach you enough, will I prepare you for your future?
To think of you hurting is unbearable; it breaks my heart and devastates my soul
How can I protect you?
See you blossom into the wonderful spirit you are destined to become?
Maybe I cannot; is that a mother curse?
A tear escapes my eye

With tender care I hold you closer and wrap my hand over your nose and mouth
Tight and strong, an outpouring of all the love I possess
And as you move, awaken and struggle against me, I quiet you with tender hush
You must never fear my child
Mummy will protect you