i dont want to die

Monday,June 18, 2012

   Today in group me and my classmates expressed to staff the anger we felt toward them. During this conversation Michael expressed his feelings and said he was so mad. He said he wanted to  kill everybody. That really scared me and the rest of the group. when group ended I was so scared that I started to cry. I couldn't help that I felt this way. I was really scared. I don't feel safe in school. I know the school takes this kind of stuff very seriously  and they had to question him to make sure he was safe,but how do you know if he was being honest? I'm so scared that he might actual come to school with a gun and start a massacre.I'm really afraid. All i want to do is go home and lock myself up in my room so than i can be at ease. I want to be safe and I want to stay in school, but now I'm going to have to push myself even harder to just walk out my house. I have all these thoughts and images in my head. What happens if he really does kill us all? I'm to young to die. I'm not afraid of death. I just really don't want to die right now.