BLIND ALLEY

I am wandering all by myself
Searching for the end of this pain
So many thorns intruding my bare feet
I'm so numb, so insensitive with this affliction
But this numbness can't affect my emotions

The pain you are giving me
Already reached its acme
I am longing for a lifelong immunity
I can't stop myself from loving you
I can't force myself not to think of you

How could I turn away
From my full-blooded masochist self
How could I let my feelings go?
How would I request my brain not to think of you?
Can somebody help me please
To take the last step to the boundary of this pique

Everywhere appears to be a blind alley
When will I stop biting the bullets you shot
I keep on looking for the exits
But it seems there is none
I am locked to this feeling
Until I breathe my last