If only you knew

Sad songs playing on repeat,
Feeling my heart barely beat.
Every breath seems worthless,
The mirror's reflecting sadness.
Sooner or later, they'll be home,
And I will no longer be all alone.
The urge of an end gets bigger,
The blades are getting deeper.
Blood covers the kitchen floor,
I couldn't handle this anymore.
It's sadly too late,
My fate is made.

Prechorus:
Shoot all the voices in my head.
Swallow the pills instead of tears.
Stab my boring life with this knife.
Choke every hope with this rope.

Chorus:
Slowly, time goes so slowly,
Seems like clocks love watching my misery.
Stronger, pain gets stronger,
Seems like sorrow wants to keep me forever.
If only you knew.

"Just another day" am I saying.
I've spent another night crying.
The whispers of joy are nothing,
In front of the sorrow screaming.
I washed the floor, victim of flood,
My tears got mixed with her blood.
Pricewinner for worst mother ever,
I've seen death cool my daughter.
Her wet eyes could only reflect me,
I've given birth to this awful tragedy.
It's sadly too late,
She made my fate.

Prechorus
Chorus

Tell me if there you're doing well,
Because here, I'm living real hell.
I hope you're with good company,
Because I've never felt this lonely.
Sudden calls are the worst alarms,
I got hugs but I needed your arms.
I have no solid shoulder to cry on,
I've had once but now you're gone.
Yesterday, I was sitting next to you,
You laughed while I was teasing you.
Yesterday, we were happily together,
Now, I'm giving your cold grave flowers.
Never knew I'll bury one of my friends,
Never knew you'll give this a sad end.
It's sadly too late,
You made my fate.

Prechorus
Chorus

If only you knew...
If only I told you...