stuck

in here
introspection at its worst
suffocating
trappped
lost
hammering against the shell of my own skull
clawing at the backs of my eyes
echoing screams  
no joy
no peace
no rest
only throbbing agony  
duplicating the process
knowing the futility
occasionally a melody
a hand reaching
nothing more than castles before the tide
stuck repeating
repeating
repeating
can't lift the needle
only change the rpm
no doors for them to get in
no windows to slip out
crawl to the deepest corner of a round room
seeking shelter  
only to find
i'm already there