Goodbye Dad

Dad where were you?
I needed you, my brother needed you
where were you when he hit mom and us
why weren't you there to protect me
when he beat me with that fishing pole?
what was wrong with me, Daddy?
didn't you know I cried every time  
I saw the look in other girls eyes
when they'd walk by with their own dads
mom used to hold me as I cried at night
Dad I needed you and you weren't there
my uncles did their best
taught me every thing they could
but Dad I didn't have their hands, feet or hair
I look like you, didn't you ever love me?
you missed my life, Dad
and now I don't need you
I know you have other kids, 6 in fact
Dad don't leave them like you left my brother and me
stay with them don't let other guys try to be their dad
like it was with me
I know I was your mistake in high school
your mom has told me that every time I have went looking for you
your family is not mine
Dad you sucked at being a dad
I know you went to treatment and straightened up for my brother and me
I know the state screwed us over,see
I know it's not all your fault
but Dad you gave us up so easily
I only think of you around this time of year
when all my friends are with their dads
this year I didn't cry
dont worry about me Dad I'll get by
tell my brothers and sisters I said hi
this is the year that I say goodbye
goodbye to the dream that you'll walk through that door
goodbye to the pain of knowing your out there living your life
goodbye to the wish that you would ever think of me twice
Goodbye Dad