my demise

   My hands tremble and i begin to sweat
it's my very existence I've come to regret
as the sharp blade pierces my skin
i think of my life over again...
  Born into a family with no love to share
feeling like no one ever really cared
growing up i would do anything for love
but in the end i only found drugs
a  drug addict at the age of eighteen
my life wasn't nearly as good as it seemed
alone in my home leaving the world behind
i would do anything to alter my mind
take me to a world all my own
where what i was doing wasn't known
i would get high and feel great
but pieces of my sanity the drugs would take
now i've been through addiction - withdrawal
there's not any further that i can fall
ending my life is one wrong i can right
my mind is fucked, I'm too tired to fight
and now that i take my very last breath
i close my eyes and wait for death