Deceit

No longer a guilty pleasure
the pleasure's transformed into pain
threatening to take me over
driving me insane
i want to run
to hide
don't want you to see what I've become inside
you've taken my mind hostage
help me get off this cruel devastating roller-coaster ride
don't look at me like you do
you're just like the rest
teasing hoping to get my sexual best
for you it's all been a show
that's delivered quite the blow
to my soul
that sadly feels the pull
I'm leaving all of this behind
and not looking back
I won't say goodbye
will you feel the lack
the absence of my presence?
I think not,
bitter, harsh but true
you'll find another piece of ass
come on, be honest,
I'm not being crass
If only you hadn't treated me like a piece of meat
It could of all been different
upfront, without all the deceit
and that's the part that disgusts me the most