in the pain of my happiness

this world is so amazing
we should all enjoy it

so when i come to say hi
why must you hurt yourself

i just want us all to be happy
so why do i see you cry

when everything seems to be fine
everyone is asking why

i'm fighting for your life
like sacrificing mine

you seem preoccupied
so i'll be here to die

everything is falling
i'm just letting go

now the dark is spreading
like poison in my blood

everything is spinning
and i'm lost here in a dark

still i move onward
because that's the only thing now

always want to fight for what's right
though i can't see what's wrong now

still i stride with my light
knowing i'll make it through the dark

now everyone is doing fine
but i'm bleeding out

all i can do is move on
it's all i got left now

here i wanna lie
and if i am to die

i'll live with no regrets
but those of never living

always been of help
somtimes i was just used

but in the end
i know i lived my life trying

everything was hurting
i lived with a full heart

the feelings of being abandoned
is slowly sinking in

but though i have 'friends' around
i never felt more alone then now

always moving forward
to avoid the backward

here in my dreams
is exploding into nightmares

at the thought of all my denials
quickly becoming real

though i've gotten past them
the pain will hurt again

wrongfully abused
i live with all my scars

non of them are light
those have always healed

the deep ones ripe through my body
nobody can see them though....

maybe one day they'll be noticed
i hope they do not cry

for when they see what's inside
they'll see what all has died.....