Somebody

I just need something for myself.
It dosen't have to be good.
I can handle cuts and bruises.
The way God made me.
I won't refuse. ;)
And I can live unhappy with the one I choose.
I just don't want to lose,
what all I've done to create.
I don't want to make
another decision.
I want to hold you to myself.
And you can come and go as you please.
But do not make me choose another.
For I cannot cheat in games like these.
I just need you all the time.
And I crave you when your far away.
I want you beyond the light of day.
And miss you when you do not stay
Especially when you don't come home.
And I have nothing for my own
when you leave me here all alone.
when I am shot with needlessness
but the prize is just too much to resist
and patience has wronged and hindered my health!
Such a dazzling way to die!
Using you as something for myself.
Something good..
or something else