You left me, Why help me now

A promise broken
To  be by my side
To hold my hand in my own darkness
To hold me in your warming light
My heart beats only for you
The matching of the beats, so strong in my eyes
Darkness covers your bright sky
Days go by and youve gone away
What did i do?
What did is say?
Im so lost without you
A shadow is all that is left as you walk away
The once warm hand, cold as it drifts away from mine
I reach for you
I call for you
Where have you gone?
Will you come back?
Silence
Im all alone once again
but was i always?
Were you just a dream?
but i will alwaays remeber that warm smile


As tears of sorrow stream down my face
A sharp reflection of before and after catches my eyes
The blade, not so far from me
I grasp it
Will you be my friend?
The sharp cut is my answer
I carve, I cut, I slice
The feeling of pain
Turns to feelings of pleasure
Of comfort
Of having something care for me
I sigh watching the blood dripping silently
Falling onto my hand
Soaking my pores that are already filled with sadness

I hear my name called
You come and grab my wrist
yelling
Screaming for me to stop this
How can i?
How could you leave me?
The blood fades
You stare in horror at the carvings
The wounds that reveal my true feelings
Hugging me tighter than you ever have
This time
You cry
Whispering your apologies and sweet nothings that i have longed to hear
Tears flow with my blood
And you word the carvings on my wrists
Please come back to me