Down Here

Hardly a good thought left now  
and I always wondered how  
The lights from the ceiling never did crash down  
As I prayed up to them to give me some kind of a sign  
Too many silences now, I feel almost out of line  
and almost a critic of the life around me  
Yeah sure sometimes you found me  
Crying laying on the earth    
Waiting for it to push back  
To give me some kind of lift  
Some kind of life  
Some kind of happiness sprouting up like a tree  
But fuck the last sentence you said to me  
Cutting me down, until the world spirals from around  
And my heart beats once more for a second  
See that one second was for you  
And you just missed your cue  
So walk and keep walking from the light shining on your life  
Disappear through darkness  
And I can't even look at the kids playing on the swings  
because these are the things that remind me  
That colors of beauty  
are just different shades of black  
But I'm grey, I'm the area you get lost in  
And I've exhausted this same song and dance  
How many times do I feel the strong blow of chance  
Telling me to come back its way only to throw me off  
The same wind guiding me  
The same wind pushing me off my cliff of reason to my fate  
I`m sorry I was late  
But traffic in this state has about the equal weight  
As the the things holding me down  
I`m used to looking at the ground  
So don`t tell me to climb  
Up to your high horse where I`ll get lost  
I like it down here  
The air is clear  
Now ride off and don`t come back
I'll start my life here