No more

Mundane and tired
Words of a lifestyle treaded more often than not
How did I get here? To feel like this.
Like falling from an infinite height waiting for a kiss.
Until the earth shatters beneath me and I float
Free, no more thinking of this and what needs to be different
Just living, finding myself without incident
Letting the past be the past and looking to my future
Being happy with myself so I can be happy with others
Others....they aren't the same people I knew when I was young
Who shattered my confidence and made it hard for me to speak
Realizing that the world doesn't owe me a fucking thing
and I can't always be counted on when I'm weak
and feeling down, and it needs to stop
So I can find this peace with myself all but forgotten
Be zen, and happy and able to say "I love you" again
I need to just let it all go and just be me
The normal me, not the one who can't look someone in the eyes
The one who cares for others more than he cares if he dies
No more suicidal thoughts, just pushing forward
No more robots....
The beauty on the inside of me
I'm happy as long as others can see
That I'm happy being me