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Postponed
The thing I fear the most in this world is bearing a child
Society wants me to believe that this is against my nature
But I was not born with the maternal instinct to nurture
Or if I was, it was ground down by who I called mother
Or maybe because I was thirteen
When I was shown how babies were made
(Months of me carrying only shame)
Or when Mother drove me to the Women’s Christian Clinic
Without a word of what would proceed
(I still can’t go to the gynecologist)
Maybe because my adolescent hormones changed
When I was put on the pill
(Or maybe because an unborn child was more protected
From society than myself)
Maybe because a child doesn’t deserve
To dwell in a place that I’ve loathed for so long
(Or maybe the realization struck
‘I shouldn't be a mother’, a generation postponed).
Society wants me to believe that this is against my nature
But I was not born with the maternal instinct to nurture
Or if I was, it was ground down by who I called mother
Or maybe because I was thirteen
When I was shown how babies were made
(Months of me carrying only shame)
Or when Mother drove me to the Women’s Christian Clinic
Without a word of what would proceed
(I still can’t go to the gynecologist)
Maybe because my adolescent hormones changed
When I was put on the pill
(Or maybe because an unborn child was more protected
From society than myself)
Maybe because a child doesn’t deserve
To dwell in a place that I’ve loathed for so long
(Or maybe the realization struck
‘I shouldn't be a mother’, a generation postponed).
Published 1st Apr 2025
Author's Note
Poem #1 in NaProWriMo Challenge
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2nd Apr 2025 5:52pm
3rd Apr 2025 11:03am
My best friend is childless by choice. She had to fight hard to get her tubes tied. No one ever asks a man the amount of invasive rounds of questioning she went through. I'm really proud of her for advocating for herself. All women deserve the choice without being shamed.
Don't let anyone let you feel bad for living the life you want.
Don't let anyone let you feel bad for living the life you want.
