mind your business

don’t try to fix me
look closer instead
at how these fractures catch light
in ways you can’t understand
transformin what you call brokenness
into somethin savage and luminous

I've watched your fingers
hover above my splintered edges
itchin to press them back together
as if I were shattered glass
waitin for your gentle restoration

who the hell told you I needed savin?
who gave you fuckin permission
to name what pulses thru my veins
to try to tame what rages in my mind?

your presence often comes with hesitation
pourin me into cups too small to hold me
every single question of concern
hangin heavy between us
with assumptions I resent

I am what I am
raw and furious
spittin on your idea of peace
shatterin the goddamn boundaries
rippin apart the straightjacket  
you've tried to wrestle me into

I never asked you to save me
do you hear me?
I never fuckin asked

don’t try to fix me
just stand with me for a moment
in the fury of my storm
without reachin for an umbrella
see how I build with my destruction
how I create in my chaos

I am not askin for your solutions
I am not hopin you’ll repair me
I am askin to be seen
as a man both burnin and drownin
both too much and not enough
exactly as I am

and if my fire burns too hot
if my depths seem too dangerous to jump into
then walk away
I will understand
it’s not like I haven’t
watched others do it before

honestly…
I’d rather burn it all
to the fuckin ground
than let you think
you had a hand in fixin me
than I’ll stand in the ashes
claimin every goddamn ember as mine