21 Seasons

You promised me everything I’ve never had
Coffee and Halloween candy
Always confidently saying “she’s not that much younger than me”
What I thought was love was only pity
And fucked up codependency

I should’ve known this is how it would end
From the first moment we met
You were biting her neck
And staring at me

Now when I look you in the eyes
I’m pressing on a bruise
That’s three different shades of blue
Because you gave her a ring
While always promising me the same thing
I thought you’d come back when I turned 18

I was crying in my bedroom wanting to die
While you were hitting golf balls off a roof
Calling it the worst years of your life
Always telling me what I want to hear
Why can’t you just admit the truth after all these years

I know it never would’ve worked
But I never thought it would hurt this bad
Didn’t think that I’d want you back
God you make me wanna die
But I don’t want to end up like
Every other naive girl in your life