Twelve Weeks

Life and Death are so entwined in my mind
That I can no longer see the difference
Your life and death came so swift...
  You seem a dream to me
And what is left of you in this life?
Nothing.
All is gone but a single picture
And my suffocating memories

You are gone. You were taken.
Ripped away as I was raped
By the cold silver snake.
This is not what I wanted.
  You changed me,
  I am transformed.
A Mother, yet I have no child
In my dreams I see that room,
With the butterfly skies
Where I traded you for tears

I see no difference between Life and Death
I see no end to the pain of this loss
So after all I have been through
Why not choose the path
  That will bring me to you?