Crossing Thoughts

Losing interest with my desires
My mind completely uninspired  
Absent thoughts and losing focus
Erratic behaviors becoming noticed
 
Night after night of restless sleep
In my head crossing thoughts do creep
Fates cruel hand has me rattled
Why keep fighting this losing battle
 
This downward spiral has perplexed
The thoughts I planned to happen next
My head hangs down unhappily  
My will declining rapidly
 
Giving in to this temptation
A peaceful warming sensation
The tremors of the smoking gun
The stress is over, I am done