In Alia's World, There's Only Darkness

How Alia Lynch would naturally react to any situation... The real reaction, not the one masking niceness.  
 
Girl scout: "Wanna buy cookies?"  
 
Alia: "BITCH!!! FUCK YOU!!! YOU'RE RUINING MY LIFE!!!! STOP PRETENDING TO BE NICE!!!" *takes the cookie box and smashes it a million times and then throws it*  
 
Random stranger: "Hi, how are you?"  
 
Alia: I HATE YOU!!!! I HATEEE YOUUUU!!! *takes a crow bar and strikes them a bunch of times and can't stop*  
 
Potential lover: *gives flowers*  
 
Alia: *breaks the glass by throwing it* "SERVES YOU RIGHT FOR YOU PRETENDING LOVE IS REAL FOR ME. JUST GIVE UP!!! THAT'S WHAT YOUR KIND DOES ANYWAY!!! I DON'T NEED THE FLOWERS, AND I DON'T NEED YOU!!!!!"  
 
All this anger...all the times I couldn't be myself. That I had to be nice girl Sarah...but never the full spectrum of me... Beaten, raped, emotionally abused... It's all crashing down on me, and I don't know how much I can go on pretending I don't have needs or pretending that anyone can handle the real me.  
 
All I have is letting out the sadness and pain little at a time because I felt like crying and screaming at my blind friend's house earlier.  
 
It's not safe. It's not safe to be me...  
 
I'm Alia Lynch...