All Me

THIS POST IS TO SHOW THAT I’M UNAFRAID  
BECAUSE I’M BEING STALKED  
I DID’NT WANT TO CONTINUE TO SHARE THIS  
 
I’ve been plagiarized    
I’ve had my style copied    
If I try something new, it’s copied    
(sometimes immediately after I post)    
There was a time I wondered if I should be flattered    
Then I was angry    
Now it means nothing to me    
I recognize how threatened people who do those things feel    
     
My avatar is my own so readers know that I’m real    
Makeup and naked-faced, I’ve shown both      
I don’t hide behind someone I’m not    
I’ve used avatars of other faces a few times in the past, briefly    
It always felt foreign    
It won’t happen again    
You can’t go to other sites and find the “real” me    
I’m right here, always have been    
And here is where I’ll stay    
     
I’m not here to gather followers    
I’m here to heal, always have been    
I’ve plastered my entire life on my pages    
Good and not so good    
My posts, erotic and not    
Are real    
I’ve only written a handful of fantasy writes    
I used to hide behind my words    
Afraid to be judged    
Telling people to guess if they were fact or fantasy    
Not anymore    
I forgot the meaning of the word shame    
     
My posts don’t have to make sense to anyone but me    
I share my work to set it free    
To clear space in my head for the next thought    
I’m not afraid to admit, there’s a lot happening up there    
Love, anger, yearning, happiness, gratitude    
If my words resonate, it’s a bonus      
It never was the goal    
     
I don’t write poems with flourishing words    
I rarely rhyme    
I write exactly the way I think    
Word for word    
Unadulterated and messy    
I’ve been told I’m not a poet    
I’ve been told to go elsewhere      
I’ve been told a lot of things    
Does it look like I care?    
I’m staying put    
You won’t find another like me    
But you will find those trying to be me    
The difference?    
     
I don’t know how not to be authentic