Not Meant For Me

Romance has not been meant for me
Since the days that my love was taken from me
When the world decided he couldn’t be with me  
And my life crashed around me
Mmmmmm 
 
And to think
I almost believed
I could have found love again with you
Mmmmm
Romance was not meant for me
Mmmm, mmm, mmmm
 
I wandered in my mind aimlessly
I couldn’t see past my heart’s new vacancy
My fortress was constructed painfully
Becoming debaucherous my new specialty
The earth traveled the sun ever so faithfully
Over time I found myself living out my wildest fantasies
With little emotion I used men salaciously
Some would say I lived life too shamefully
Then along came the man who attempted to save me
His words the concerto that played my heartstrings rhythmically
I let down my guard too hastily
And fell in love with my emancipator unabashedly
A whirlwind of emotions I was swept off my feet gracefully
I confused his savior complex with love mistakenly
I overlooked his moodiness for what was hostility
Never comprehending it was his narcissism that shone blatantly
Dropped from his life I was left floundering
As the questions in my mind kept compounding
I threw my walls back up to keep anyone else from entering
Back to lasciviousness I found myself surrendering
And then along came you
You with your words of appreciation and beauty
Words meant to sweep me off my feet
They meant something to me
You meant more to me
I should have known such beauty
Could never be meant for me
Mmmmm, mmmm, mmmmm  
 
And to think
I almost believed
I could have found love again with you
Mmmmm
Romance was not meant for me
 
(repeat)
Romance was never meant for me
In my past there was a man who gave his heart to me
In my soul I remember everything
It’s only in my dreams
I’m no longer hurting