what about us

I hated you for the longest time,  
Believed someday I'd leave you behind.  
I cried, I screamed, I begged the sky,  
“Tell me what I did, why?”  

For months, the tears refused to cease,  
Pain demanded but granted no release.  
Then, one day, I felt something shift,  
No more yearning, just a hollow rift.  

I’m not numb; I still feel pain,  
Anger lingers, sharp as rain.  
But thoughts of you bring only cold,  
A hollow ache where love once told.  

I craved your touch, now it makes me ill,  
The thought of you bends my will.  
I want to scream, let the anguish out,  
Yet something grips my heart with doubt.  

I wish to erase you, set myself free,  
Rid my heart of this memory.  
I can’t take this burden, this endless ache,  
A life of freedom is all I stake.  

I don’t want to be the girl who’s trapped,  
By years I gave, by a love that lapsed.  
Months have passed, you had your chance,  
To prove your love, to change this stance.  

Yet you don’t try, you never did,  
You showed me truths I long had hid.  
I thought you were perfect, a dream so pure,  
But you were just a tale, unsure.  

An act, a mask, I fell too deep,  
Fought for love that wouldn’t keep.  
I burned, I broke, I tore apart,  
Trying to mold myself, break my heart.  

I shouldn’t have changed for love to stay,  
You should’ve loved me the natural way.  
Now here I sit, pain in my chest,  
Wondering if I gave my best.  

Did I fail, or was this fate?  
A question that leaves me in debate.  
Tormented by answers I cannot see,  
Was it you, or was it me?