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Journal Entry - The Threat
It's hard to believe how quickly a consensual affair can turn into heartache and regret. I should have known better than to get involved with another married man, but in the moment, it felt right. I was caught up in the rush.
Now I re-read Sally's texts. Her words are like daggers. I never meant to hurt anyone. In the steamy fog of too much wine, I just wanted to feel something, anything, that would heal my own emptiness.
Sally's a cop, and I'm... I'm an addict. I’m nothing now. I can't help but wonder what she might do with her anger and her authority. This is the first time I’ve felt like someone wished that I would die.Even when Ava’s father David and I were at our worst, he never threatened to hurt me.
I wish I could turn back and make different choices. But Sally’s threat is a consequence of my actions. I want to be better, for my child, for myself, but tonight, forgiveness isn’t a possibility. She said, "I'll soon see you in hell for this sin against my family." Does she not realize I'm already there?
Now I re-read Sally's texts. Her words are like daggers. I never meant to hurt anyone. In the steamy fog of too much wine, I just wanted to feel something, anything, that would heal my own emptiness.
Sally's a cop, and I'm... I'm an addict. I’m nothing now. I can't help but wonder what she might do with her anger and her authority. This is the first time I’ve felt like someone wished that I would die.Even when Ava’s father David and I were at our worst, he never threatened to hurt me.
I wish I could turn back and make different choices. But Sally’s threat is a consequence of my actions. I want to be better, for my child, for myself, but tonight, forgiveness isn’t a possibility. She said, "I'll soon see you in hell for this sin against my family." Does she not realize I'm already there?
Published 31st Dec 2024
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Last night's journal entry after getting a threatening text.
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Not good thing to hear on the eve of a New Year, I acknowledge, but I would say - don't jump to conclusions about what is going to happen. If you had committed a criminal offence against her husband, then expect criminal proceedings, but then have you?. A cop would need a crime to charge you with. In all events get legal help from a lawyer if you fear legal action, and get help from a suicide prevention agency if you feel you need 'suicide watch'.
In my country a cop would need to declare an interest when seeking to take action to charge someone for something done to their relative or property so that another officer can interview and take the action forward. I hope that would be the same case in US.
If you haven't deleted them, keep the texts in case you might need them for evidence against her.
In my country a cop would need to declare an interest when seeking to take action to charge someone for something done to their relative or property so that another officer can interview and take the action forward. I hope that would be the same case in US.
If you haven't deleted them, keep the texts in case you might need them for evidence against her.
5th Jan 2025 8:30pm
Part of healing and regaining power, as you have, is to acknowledge your mistakes. It is true that "This too shall pass." Hugs and love,Oral
