"Blue Pill Brain" "Red Pill Awareness "

         
         
         
  morso right side of the brain minded- although drawn to philosophical content; but when I imagine "fork in the road" senerios- I'd rather imagine a nice "spoon"-despite a world so serial/cereal....        
         
  see what I mean? that so called "blue pill brain" mentality- wanting to get lost in person, place or thing- one's talking OD;        
         
 but one sees- one sees outside of one's self like "astral projection" looking down at one's own body- so to speak; that's when the "Red pill brain awareness" spills over into the blue sea deep....        
         
  why don't you "diagnosis" me?; im sure it's going to be more than just anxiety; one's just one of many echoes in the chamber- like bullets ricocheting through the- "hallways full of doors" where the "patients" sometimes need to scream....  
         
  what's behind that "exit door" ? especially when one feels that "fifthteen million merits"(black mirror episode reference)- a school of many sorts of fish in a sea full of "elitism/terrorists...."    
   
  but hey- there's this thing ive got for the color blue(drawn to the "blue pill")- especially navy(humor with a little honesty)