No uncertain terms (simply confounding)

It seems as though modern advancement of science, technology, and physics has confounded the spirit in man.  In hopes of truth and purpose, stepping outside of the box to see multiple perspectives isn't so clear anymore.  Every which way you look, there is synchronicity, at least unto reason.  The furthest point from conceptualization seems as though it's reality, while the simplest point, seems to be dismissed, in great wonder, and potentially, confusion.  Usage of metaphor and life philosophy has seemingly bitten the dust, with the modern advancements of man.  It's as though we're just machines, observing chance and consequence in a course of no free will.  With that said, there is obviously the reality that we cannot "experience' that which is beyond the physical realm, in the 5 senses, all the while remembering, creating, reasoning, and "seeing", if you will.  To me, that alone, is proof of "spirit" in man - the disposition, juxtaposition, vicariousness, and dichotomy of man in future endeavor.  It's only that we haven't had truth and purpose "interjected" yet, at least by my beliefs.  Anyway, this is more thought-provoking than you give it credit for.  My assertion is either confounded in nonsense or perhaps makes valid points - it's up to you to decide!  More evidence of free will!  Thanks for sharing!

Its an over complicated way of saying I'm keeping things i don't want in mind skirting them around the edges keeping them unprocessed because I honestly don't want too.
I like your interpretation though too.
Though i don't believe things the same way I'm pretty sure theres a soul. What you said sort of made me think perhaps feeling connected to someone is entangling certain particles with theirs

This seems to me like you have so many contradicted feelings, where you feel you are lost, not able to find a departure point, and as if someone you know makes much pressure on you, that makes your decisions so blurred by your inter-fighting feelings....
Or as a last explanation, this is only the fruit of an A.I generated article about dark thoughts.


haphazardly choreographed with precise misaligned determination.  
there is a striking contradiction here

I'd never use A.I. to generate a poem, a picture yes but never a poem. I'm not the kind of person that likes advice or help with things I like doing. I've checked some of my poems in an A.I. tester to see if it comes up as A.I. and I've found them to be wildly inconsistent from tester to tester some say yes some say no, they don't work. That's not just me saying that either.    
   
I know how I feel the problem is when its an ever present thought that's depressing (my head has dumb rules, it's complicated).    
Over the last few years I've been growing very numb. On the contrary, someone I still very much care about is still in my head.    
A lot of things about her made me extremely sad, sadder than I've ever been.    
   
Contradiction is a useful device in my writing.

If you are satisfied with your answer and with your thoughts, then i must withdraw all that i have said;because i think you only what to wildly and angrily eject and throw away anything that is bothering you...
it can even be hitting the wall, or breaking a glass .or tear out your hair.. you want to rid your head from that Her...
Poetry is the mos ethical litterary device that gives you that privilege

I'm not bothered, you thought there was reason to confront me, so you did, I appreciate that.
I don't want to be rid of her, she meant a lot to me. Though i will write about things revoling around these kinds of situations, it's never really been cathartic (perhaps subconsciously it is). I also don't actually know what to say about it all this time.
I could never hate her or want to forget her.
It took something from me though,
I've not felt quite like this before.

Amyway, I'll stop rambling now.

Read three times. An amazing poem...YES, confounding. Hugs and love, Oral