Ass Up!

Ass Up!
 
Fucking has it's place!
It's not music that
soothes the savage  
beast - it's a good hard cum!
 
Women like me need it, too -
especially women who lie and
say they DON'T need it.
THEY NEED IT THE MOST!
 
I've been abused.  It's a mindset
you wouldn't understand unless
you've been there...and it was
done to you!  But I still need to cum!
 
I don't hate the big O.  It's actually
quite far from the stuff forced upon me.
They were looking to soothe what
was done to them...by passing it on!!!
 
You would think that doing "stuff" to
others would be abhorrent to them..
Guess again!  They just consider it a shift
in POWER! To them from "over them"!
 
Not all "abused" folks pass it on.  Read
that again!!!  We all cope as best we can.
Some cut.  Some drink.  Drugs are a
very poor option!  Passing it on is the worst!
 
I try to enjoy sex in my own head. YES I
MASTURBATE! That's because of fear!
I need control - that's how I cope!!!  I
rarely find a guy who can handle that!
 
For dudes, it's hard for them to stop and  
start while I get into a safe mindset. I
have had a few just put on their pants  
and walk!  That is frustrating for both of us.
 
Most of my male abusers got on me to
hold me down 'til they were done.  Or,
a fleshy gift shoved in my mouth!  I have
found doggy style to be a great solution.
 
If I am ass up and face down...I can get
deep relief without feeling forcibly  
restricted.  I can imagine a "safe face" to
the body doing the deed to me.
 
It's all about my fears. Being forcibly  
held down is what I associate most  
with my being raped. Not the vile intrusion...
that actually meant that it would soon end!
 
Like everyone else - I need sex!  So,
imagine me in position and you have my
permission - you are to slam my wet cunt!
It's dripping wet in this fantasy - CUM!
 
Ease it in slowly until you are deep.
Your balls should slap my ass with
each thrust.  Don't mind what name I
call you!  If I scream SATAN...go with it!
 
Satan never raped me.  So slap slap slap
over and over until you moan.  That gets
me going, too.  Abuse involved getting
punched in the face and called a "cunt".
 
Every deep ball slap to my ass and against
my clit builds it up for both of us.  I give
you permission to grab my hair just don't
pull it too hard.  CUM FOR ME SATAN!
 
I hope it was good for you.  I need to
shower and douche.  You can leave now.
You got a good cum...no strings attached.
We used each other to satisfy our needs...
 
I DON'T DO MUSHY RELATIONSHIP STUFF!