selah

 
silent sorrow lilts inside me
sadness not expressed but kept in
secretly tears escape me
where no one can see

there is no place for sorrow
a heavy feeling nobody wants to share
complaining with an ache so great
tiring of it myself

I bear the burden alone
saying my prayers here and there
the Father himself wearys of my grief

grateful for everday even in my hurt
emotions overcome and I balk
feelings so powerful I don't understand
suffering to what end

journaling in my diary
honesty lets my heart heal
vulnerable on the page
but if you ask me if I'm okay
I will lie to you

fibs told to keep others happy
no harm meant, there is no reason for my heaviness of being
no way to explain it
it's just present

you can't understand feelings so unfathomable
sometimes I wonder if we are not connected to the world
to the combined suffering,
we do our best to distance ourselves from

if we don't feel it in our souls
in our very own bodies
perhaps, even feelings God groans under the weight of
it is no wonder,a very natural thing
that the earth ache and we with her

with knowledge, I work through this ache
knowing there are those out there in pain
I will bear the hurt with them

my payment in tears
so they may not walk alone