it's not my fault you're flammable

He says he loves me  
like I'm awe inspiring  
and some days the way  
he looks at me  
makes me want to punch myself  
because I don't know how to accept  
that level of adoration
and I'm sure I don't deserve it  
 
I'm the instigator of all fights  
I have a fire inside me that  
once it's done burning me  
it will light up anyone  
unlucky enough to stand too close
maybe that's what it means  
to be unlucky in love  
not to be without love  
but to love something that burns  
 
Some days I wonder  
if I just happen to fuck up everyone I love  
or if I'm just good at finding  
their busted seams  
and tugging so hard
they start to unravel  
when my insecurities  
get the best of me  
 
He says he loves me  
like I'm awe inspiring  
and I don't know if I'll ever  
know what to do with that  
 
Excuse me  
while I go light something on fire