Confusion    Cinny challenge

Knowledge escaped me 
And I can't get it back 
I need to get it back 
Without it  
I can't think straight
I'm staring at four walls 
With the taste from last nights supper in my mouth
Not knowing exactly what I ate 
Or who I am 
Or why I fucked a man 
 
It's all a muddled mess 
me with my black dress on 
And a book in my hand 
Still wondering why I'm in a dress 
Or why these walls seem to be  screaming at me 
 
All the Distorted pictures appearing on the carpet 
Reminders of last nights sins 
Images and smiling faces 
Me talking to them as if they can answer back 
 
I'm a fucking confused mess 
Nothing done can turn this situation into a false  reality 
And I'm still wondering about this painted face in the mirror staring back at me  
It looks like me 
But it can't be me
I'm a man not women 
My name I believe is Steve