Dissolving

Drowning in a pool of tears
Living in a reality
I can't begin to understand
My future was mapped
Now the map is torn to shreds
Uncertainty scares me to drink
And drink brings me closer to death
But maybe that's what I want
For all of this to be over
Good moments are few and far between
You want truth but sometimes it hurts
Time just keeps disappearing
And I'm just getting older
Dissolving closer to the end