Beheaded

Too many thoughts, not enough words
Too many emotions, not enough…
Not enough time, not enough strength
a failure in my mind, beheaded- my own crime.
Loss of hope, loss of joy
alone in the struggle, a wounded soldier
a mental war leaves me bruised and broken
weeping, screaming, pleading
too many thoughts, too many words.

Shut the fuck up.

No one can hear you
and if they could, they wouldn’t care.
alone in my grief
grinding my teeth
too many emotions
never enough.