how does one know when they've had enough because for months and weeks and for days including this very one i have reached points that have felt like stabs my head is pulsing stop, stop, stop this life is not bad I've seen my share of yellows and baby blues "it is what you make of it" but how can i possibly see a rainbow through these blurry eyes please I wasn't born to be colorblind
the heart that breaks is the heart that heals and time does not decide when or how or where but time does stop and allows us to look through the open eye the mind discovering a love undiscoverable by he by they but by me I see clearly now and the healing begins
there is something that I'm quite addicted to is it the way that you say my name or the way you fill me with love that was made for me the way your hair drenched and heavy falls into my eyes as you hover above me the way your skin sticks to mine like we are bound like we are glued
my insides are stirring a population of a trillion butterflies sweet honey warmed between my thighs my sweet sweet boy what have you done to me I promise to be yours ...
he sits next to me and smiles I lower my head this does not dissuade him as he asks, "is there meaning to life?"
from there, the conversation drags as he goes on and on about the absence of objective truth and how life is ultimately meaningless † I intently focus on his mouth all the while envisioning how it would taste on mine he continues to speak but I can no longer bare it I put my finger against his lips holding it there for a few seconds and say, "If I kiss...
I did not know that I was capable of this heart, why do you ache? did you forget why you beat? we're a team here you supply me with life I supply you with love I mess up, I do but sometimes so do you i'm trying so hard to be less clumsy but you're addicted to the fall help me, dear heart so that I may help you and please do not give up we'll be okay
I can't fathom this feeling my heart is cracking my head is ringing my eyes swell but cry, they do not why does this feel normal to me what have I done and what do I do I drowned in you while you splashed around in me playfully with no regard until I evaporated into the air that you refuse to breathe tell me why why I am not enough
hold me ever so tightly and don't let go take me to bed let me rest my head upon your chest wrap your arms around me let us fit together as if we were one like our fingers intertwined and hearts entangled let our bodies flow like a song that only heaven above can hear so fine tell me that you love me so I can project the same and that you are forever mine I am falling into you like the waves crashing upon the shore in my soul our collision shakes and breaks the tides between us now, let us fall...
I have an infuriating headache and annoyed I am, but upset I'm not is it the stress, is it the uncertainty? no, it's the caffeine the espresso that makes you scrunch your eyes mixed with the sweetest vanilla cream a cold brew for my cold heart
I am a heap of emotions a collection of thoughts that resign in my subconscious allowing me to breathe but suffocating my strength my growth and my progression a dauntless love for a life I do not have a nasty habit that I have failed time and time to quit but i've had enough no longer will I no longer
when is enough enough? the moment you come to terms with all of this the clarity the moment between now and between I
Today I sat back and I thought about the scent I thought about the temperature the lighting the colors and the materials that surround but above all I thought about the people next to me in front of me behind me the people before me
there are fingerprints everywhere it blows my mind to know that everything I have touched someone else has touched before me somebody so foreign, but so familiar how? everything that comes into my life, that I do, that I own was once a subject of someone else influence and...