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The Price Is Never Fair
Whiskey river flowing through my mind
Unable to remember which way is down
Needing to escape from the daily grind
Waiting for insanity to come back around
Hooked on the feeling of remaining numb
Casting blame on this foolish heart of mine
Chasing after love leaves me looking dumb
These toxic thoughts lead to rapid decline
Been broken so many times I’ve lost count
Yesterday is one continuous loop of despair
Couldn’t tell you how much or the amount
Details get fuzzy and the price is never fair
Unable to remember which way is down
Needing to escape from the daily grind
Waiting for insanity to come back around
Hooked on the feeling of remaining numb
Casting blame on this foolish heart of mine
Chasing after love leaves me looking dumb
These toxic thoughts lead to rapid decline
Been broken so many times I’ve lost count
Yesterday is one continuous loop of despair
Couldn’t tell you how much or the amount
Details get fuzzy and the price is never fair
Author's Note
Late night musing. Part of my sobriety has become about humbling myself at times. By writing the truth about my addiction. Give myself a reminder of the price I'm paying in present day, and how much of my life was wasted on an empty feeling. The image above was commonplace in my life, except 90% of the time I never spilled a drop. I got aches all over from landing awkwardly for the many summers I consumed. Appreciate you.
- Damian DeadLove
"The same thing that makes you live, can kill you in the end"
- Neil Young
- Damian DeadLove
"The same thing that makes you live, can kill you in the end"
- Neil Young
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Re. The Price Is Never Fair
26th Oct 2024 8:45am
Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 2:21am
I'll be two years at the end of February. Thanks so much for reading, LDF. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
Re. The Price Is Never Fair
26th Oct 2024 10:42am
Heavy my friend. Well written. A vulnerable piece. You captured what many can relate to and have gone through. Great work!
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Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 2:26am
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Keith. Honored to make your RL. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
Re. The Price Is Never Fair
26th Oct 2024 12:36pm
Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 2:27am
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Pete. Honored to make your RL. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
Re. The Price Is Never Fair
26th Oct 2024 1:48pm
Being the daughter of an alcoholic, I see what it puts you through. I may write a lot about drinking but I do not consume as much as I say in fear of becoming an alcoholic.
Very open DL
Very open DL
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Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 2:33am
Thanks for reading and your kind words, Fia. I can understand your fear. My dad and brother are also alcoholic's. None of us are drinking anymore, fortunately. I don't have to tell you, because I'm sure you know. It's just as rough or rougher having to observe an alcoholic destroy themselves. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
Re. The Price Is Never Fair
26th Oct 2024 4:05pm
Thanks for sharing your thoughts and really appreciate your words and I can relate to your authors thoughts, for I came from a dysfunctional childhood dealing with my stepfather who drunk his self to death, dying from kidney and bladder dysfunction and he being abusive to me, yet my own mother would say to me that is what you need a man in your life 🤨 then she would call me a bastard child due to the fact, I reminded her of him my real father, yet here was a man not my father 🤨 when he was drunk and abused me hitting and punching me 😲my grandparents said to me that no misdeed goes UNPUNISHED 🤨.
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Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 2:58am
Thanks so much for reading and your commentary, SHAMAN. So sorry you went through all that in your life. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 8:05am
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Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 2:04am
So much to say about this topic but I'm going to keep it
in a positive light because I'm glad you found your sobriety.
My best friend has been sober for around 15 years and I'm so happy
to have her back. I'm sure you have people in your life
that are happy you have found your strength to take back your life
from alcohol.
Congratulations amigo!!
I know it's not easy so hang in there!!
in a positive light because I'm glad you found your sobriety.
My best friend has been sober for around 15 years and I'm so happy
to have her back. I'm sure you have people in your life
that are happy you have found your strength to take back your life
from alcohol.
Congratulations amigo!!
I know it's not easy so hang in there!!
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Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 3:02am
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Adel. Honored to make your RL. I'm glad you got your friend back. Alcoholic's don't always realize how much we hurt those around us, who watch us basically kill ourselves slowly. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 2:09am
"Whiskey River" I wonder if you played that old Alabama tune back in the day?!
However you got this far in life, and now at DUP, consider it a success. Your writing is top notch, and your personal character that emits from that is equally so.
A gentleman and a (poetic) scholar....
Great writing. Great thoughts.
However you got this far in life, and now at DUP, consider it a success. Your writing is top notch, and your personal character that emits from that is equally so.
A gentleman and a (poetic) scholar....
Great writing. Great thoughts.
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Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 3:21am
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Styxian. Never played that one, we were to into metal and hard rock. Also, I needed to hear that brother. You made my year. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 6:43am
Nice write DL. I’m 19 days sober and I know exactly what you mean. I just know the bottom of the bottle wasn’t helping me or the ones I love. Day by day.
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Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 8:25am
Thanks for reading, brother. Honored to make your RL.That's all you can do is one day at a time. Hang in there. It does get easier over time. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
Re. The Price Is Never Fair
27th Oct 2024 7:55pm
I am grateful you discovered sobriety. I know it's not easy; I have many friends who are clean and sober now. Yet they still face the temptation. It takes a strong man to overcome addiction, Damian. Good on you.
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Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
28th Oct 2024 1:41am
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, Tams. I try to stay positive and that works for the most part. When it hits me the hardest, I just write about the reality of the experience. In hopes it keeps me on the right path. Temptation never completely goes away. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
Re. The Price Is Never Fair
31st Oct 2024 5:22am
Dear DL,
I can appreciate this poem on so many levels. I really liked the honest conversational style of the write. While I wish it was the elixir for a certain someone in my world I cherish the knowledge you have succeeded to rise above the cold grip of the bottle. Great write. H🌷
I can appreciate this poem on so many levels. I really liked the honest conversational style of the write. While I wish it was the elixir for a certain someone in my world I cherish the knowledge you have succeeded to rise above the cold grip of the bottle. Great write. H🌷
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Re: Re. The Price Is Never Fair
31st Oct 2024 7:06am
Thanks so much for reading and your kind words, H. Always enjoy your commentary. Appreciate you.
DL
DL