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The difference only a few days can make    
How a heart filled with love can so easily break      
     
A voice that gave me peace and now it haunts me    
A face that brightened my day and now it taunts me      
     
With thoughts of a future that we'll never share    
A dream once so beautiful is now a nightmare      
     
The sum of my fears has come to fruition    
My mind knew better but my heart wouldn't listen      
     
Wrapped up in a fantasy, pretending it was real    
Of course I knew better but I wanted to feel      
     
I did...      
     
I felt my heart beat again, hope had returned    
I ignored intuition and all that I had learned      
     
You became an obsession, an addiction I craved    
Is that the truth or an excuse for the way I behaved?      
     
When I said I love you I meant it, did you feel the same?      
Was any of this real to you or was it all just a game?      
     
When you cut me off it hurt and I admit I got cocky    
I said fuck you and it felt good until you blocked me      
     
I dont want those to be my last words that you read    
When in reality losing you makes me want to bleed      
     
I should...      
     
I would if I thought it would help in some way    
If bleeding would make you change your mind and stay      
     
They say we make time for what is important to us    
When you didn't have time that showed how important I was      
     
The pain caused me to say something I might always regret    
Did I close the door or was your mind already set?      
     
I sit here struggling with how I should feel    
A part of me feels angry but the sadness is real      
     
You made me believe things that I had given up on    
Life feels fucking empty now that you're gone      
     
I am...      
     
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