shifting states

I'm a deer caught in the headlights again  
my insecurities flay me open  
and here I am starting fights
where fights don't belong  
 
You meet my fire with more flames  
and in seconds we're an inferno  
destroying everything  
that gets in our way  
including each other  
until one of us walks away  
(usually me)
and we lick our wounds  
in the ashes  
trying to figure out  
what went wrong  
 
It's not our fault  
no one taught us how to communicate  
but it's our fault we don't fix  
the cracks we always fall through  
when life punches us harder  
than we can punch it back  
 
I'm a deer caught in the headlights again  
my insecurities flay me open  
and here I am starting fights
where fights don't belong  
 
And I'm waiting for the day  
when you don't forgive me  
but perhaps you're just  
as addicted to this pain as I am  
 
I'm a deer caught in the headlights again
 
Today I forgive me  
 
My insecurities flay me open
 
I forgive you too