Tears of Death

I thought I had escaped
It's been 25 years  
Since I have felt this way
I can't stop crying
Staying awake at night
Reliving every mistake
Every failure
Over and over again
My mind is racing
How did I end up like this
Where did I go wrong
Ghosts haunting my past regrets
Lies
Deception  
Depression has resurfaced  
And my soul is deteriorating  
When will this pain
This misery
This life end
My darkest thoughts  
From the slivers of my subconscious  
Romancing me
Whispering in my ears
Pulling my heart strings
Tempting me
Promising to set me free  
I'm being kissed  
By the tears of death