0 - Unfinished poetry 18

There is no love here  
   
   
It’s me.  I’m back.  
I left you all without me,  
Because of all the hope I lacked.  
I felt like I was done with this,  
I was truly gone.  
Then I found a way to see now,  
That not all I do is wrong.  
   
   
I made mistakes, it’s fair to say,  
But I have never tried to fake it.  
That is my only truthful way,  
So here’s my truth, I need you.  
I need to speak about feelings,  
Now they’re once more shining through.  
   
   
I used to love, not any more.  
I bounced through all the walls I had built up,  
Like I was a big red round bouncing ball.  
But this is no dream for me I think.  
I have no way to go ahead and seize it.  
I have no central control controlling me,  
I’m just getting used to growing old,  
Enjoying feeling old.  
   
   
But I’m still young inside my head.  
Sure I have days I want to skip through  
And people I’d rather forget,  
But they were in my life,  
Now worn as scars.  
I have to show them, not to feel them  
And just accept they were a part.  
They helped me know what I want.  
My dream has never really changed.  
I just changed what I think is worth the cost.  
   
   
My soul is mine, you can have my heart.  
Maybe one day I’ll let you see me,  
If you’re authentic and we are,  
Meant to be, we will be.  
At this moment in time love is not a thing,  
In which I can believe.  
   
   
So I’ll write what I like,  
I’ll screw up all the love inside  
And put is to one side.  
I’m having fun, without love,  
I’m running for my future,  
Knowing right now I’m feeling good.  
If you come into my life,  
You’ll have to be a new sensation,  
Not just the sexiness which I once eyed.  
   
   
I’m here to stay, love me my way.  
If you cannot stay faithful then I’ll bid you a good day.  
I’m a poet.   I can show it.  
I have thousands of verses,  
So don’t speak if you’re VS.  
My thoughts are mine, go write your own.
Never try to copy what I’m saying,  
I need no clone.  
   
   
If I inspire, go ahead grab your fire.  
I want you to go get love,  
If that is your desire.  
I don’t want what they’re selling.  
I like the peace and quiet,    
Hush-a-mouth with all your yelling.  
I don’t care, so there.  
I hope adultery does you in.  
I sure hope Karma is a thing.  
   
   
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