unforgiven

 
tears are not enough payment for the grief of past hurts
times when I hurt myself with bad choices
catch twenty-two had I chosen differing routes
would have my schizophrenic derailed me as bad
tortured childhood I'm really wondering
was I an instrument of failure

thinking about who rules the realms
having flashing visions of making a soul vow
though I can't remember
we have been permanently separated
the Father tells me I made a soul pact

that he spent eons trying to get me to confess
not sure of this he tells me it was a great betrayal
with a moment hesitation, I was taken down
on a delayed swing

so the hateful torture was earned
the unforgiven Metallica
in the mortal, I have a chance to prove myself
faithful I can't remember the war

thoughts of clashing ideas
a flicker in the eyes
then utter mayhem
I'm unsure how long ago this was

Luce is pardoned he expected him to stand
he was disappointed I didn't say my peace
and prove him wrong on any point
he has appointed a council
to go through a certain protocol before destructive forces are geared

he has given and he has taken away
sometimes I think he has forgiven me
seemingly the bearer of bad memories
we will be laughing and it will eventually come up

don't provoke his jealousy
what he will accept from others involved he won't except from me
bound by honor I wonder

how many lives I must go through I don't want war
redeeming my mind I met Luce but don't know him
because after all these eons, he is different and I am too

excusing my pain I've been more than honest
perhaps my imagination is wild
Lu waited centuries for my release and we don't know each other

debt paid scalding revenge
things will never be the same