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I'm not
I'm no longer hungry
This loneliness is enough to keep me satisfied
My mind is preoccupied
Most people are deceived
That loneliness consists of absolute nothing
But if you gave yourself more time lusting for the void
You wouldn't feel so destroyed
Often I'm feeling toyed
Popping in and out of secure feelings
Not even sure where those even come from
You've got me on a long leash fella
and never seemed to care if Im your someone
Discarded it seems
From anything that would mutually benefit me
Maybe I need to stop being so selfish
All I wanted was symbiosis
I know you think I'm mean
I've gotten slender by the day
And I don't want to slip out of my collar
I don't want to be lead astray
And by just anyone who wants to guide me to that bad place
Your eyes are often elsewhere these days.
On your particular porn without me
but mostly video games
But maybe that's always been the truth
And I will always ache to feel more connected
I wish I was tethered to you
But more alone time is fine
It's something I can do to
My heart still reaches out
My body still screams
So desperately wanting
Someone to absolutely consume me
But if I step out of line
On days it's hard to behave
Does someone exists
who I can look to lead the way ?
Even if it takes fear based punishments?
Even if it takes pain ?
Even if it makes me want to kill myself
It will put me in better shape
It will make me more empathetic
It will keep me focused on being better
Create harmony in my broken brain.
I'm no longer hungry
This loneliness is enough to keep me satisfied
My mind is preoccupied
On Why the stars won't align
Why I ask the incorrect questions all the time
Why I avoid why we're not alright
Why I avoid changing my life.
This loneliness is enough to keep me satisfied
My mind is preoccupied
Most people are deceived
That loneliness consists of absolute nothing
But if you gave yourself more time lusting for the void
You wouldn't feel so destroyed
Often I'm feeling toyed
Popping in and out of secure feelings
Not even sure where those even come from
You've got me on a long leash fella
and never seemed to care if Im your someone
Discarded it seems
From anything that would mutually benefit me
Maybe I need to stop being so selfish
All I wanted was symbiosis
I know you think I'm mean
I've gotten slender by the day
And I don't want to slip out of my collar
I don't want to be lead astray
And by just anyone who wants to guide me to that bad place
Your eyes are often elsewhere these days.
On your particular porn without me
but mostly video games
But maybe that's always been the truth
And I will always ache to feel more connected
I wish I was tethered to you
But more alone time is fine
It's something I can do to
My heart still reaches out
My body still screams
So desperately wanting
Someone to absolutely consume me
But if I step out of line
On days it's hard to behave
Does someone exists
who I can look to lead the way ?
Even if it takes fear based punishments?
Even if it takes pain ?
Even if it makes me want to kill myself
It will put me in better shape
It will make me more empathetic
It will keep me focused on being better
Create harmony in my broken brain.
I'm no longer hungry
This loneliness is enough to keep me satisfied
My mind is preoccupied
On Why the stars won't align
Why I ask the incorrect questions all the time
Why I avoid why we're not alright
Why I avoid changing my life.
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