Accepted

Alone with these abandoned thoughts
Crazy with trepidation about large crowds
Madness broke my mind a long time ago
Now I contemplate sin multiple times a day

Fragile dreams scattered along the highway
Drunk with a desire that never trusted me
Kept the brain strung out with false illusions
Only to tempt away the guilt festering inside

I’m an introvert that loves being in solitude
Smitten with my muse who inspires words
Until the bottle whom I was sleeping with
Decided that she wanted complete control

Often my subconscious would ghostwrite
Fingers still working but I’m not even there
Fragmented phrases hidden in a metaphor
That were often liked by those who’d read

Luckily for me the journey changed paths
With sobriety came the doubt of my ability
Beyond scared because I feared rejection
Until being accepted into this community