stagnant hearts always turn to stone

I've convinced myself  
there's nothing here  
worth holding on to  
and I've been waiting  
for you to prove me right  
 
So far  
you don't dare to disappoint  
 
I push through because  
there is nothing else I can do  
I have no one pick up the pieces  
of the crumbling parts of me  
and it's easier to push  
the closeness of your face away  
than let you see the real me  
in this half light  
 
Never mind that I want  
you to push through  
intuit the wrongness of this place  
 
I want you to see me  
but somehow you never do  
 
I've convinced myself  
there's nothing here  
worth holding on to  
 
But I don't leave