Sunshine and puppies

Where have I gone ?
I'm here , but I'm not
You can't see me ,
Thats the shell of a man whom once visually represented me ,
Now
An empty carcus of meat
A fragile egg shell of a human with
Bones that can crack , snap and splint
Vital organs that will rupture and bleed out.

I am happy and jovial
I am fun to be around
I am the one who loves
I am the one that brings a smile to gun fight
I am the one that won

So where am I ?
I am gone ,
I guess I gave up ,
I'm not coming back .

Do what you will to that ragdoll corpse
It's heart has a bitter taste to it
It's a dark cave of doubt and unspeakable pain
An anethatized warlock .

I hope where ever I am now that thing never finds me ,

- Grifta