Cui Bono

Wherever I look I am right there.
Cannot escape so why even dare.
This person I see each day looking back,
Imposes her thoughts and sometimes attacks.
I get mad at her and she gets mad back.
Slammed in my face like a blunt forceful slap.
I've never been able to quite find my niche.
Along the way I've stumbled and tripped.
I topple on questions and slip on the truth
I delve and infringe like an interested sleuth.
I have to know when .
I need to know now.
I want the details.
The ins and the outs.
I can't stand evasion,  or the skirting of lies.
On honesty's comfort my psyche will thrive.
I'm hungry for boldness and passion and zeal.
Spontaneity is my greatest appeal.
I long for adventure.
Something quite new.
As long as it's packaged and wrapped around truth.
I'm guarded and strengthened
I'm strange, but I'm kind.
The things I am missing I do want to find.
I have no use for being misled.
My utmost intentions are an intimate bed.
Lie down with me and hear what I say.
My desire was never to drive you away.