missing

I left myself behind somewhere in the chaos
a piece of me got wrapped up in the strangeness
I feel it missing like the best of me just disappeared
I wondered where it went

flesh of my flesh soul of my soul
I don't seem whole
the person I was vanished
I feel traces of who I was like loose ended string
thoughts begin and end with no closure

it hurts this emptiness I'm left with
and I'm unsure how to carry on
I wonder where I went
the other half of me

my passions my aches
turning in the elements somewhere is the person I was
and I look to you and believe you miss me

feeling forlorn and without explanation
it is with this I realize I will never be able to form a bond
when without warning the best of me will disappear

I feel like I hurt you and I can't abide with this
neither am I able to return to you the person you miss
not at the moment anyway I'm hoping it is just the new meds
making me feel like my most vital feelings are missing

I hate that I need them
I hate that I'm missing so much of me